voracious for my desire

2007-04-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

To a Friend:

I know your heart & i know how you feel.
You've treat me well; i know.
Facing you i'm confused & awkward.
You're a good friend.
I'm afraid to face or accept another person now.
Perhaps it's due to my previous one.
But i'm glad you still continue treat me as friend
& still cares to keep in touch with me.
Nice knowing you. x))

A few days ago, i received a message from someone unexpected.
Seeing who's the sender, my feelings were . . . thrilled ? angry ? or. . .?
I have no idea.

I just had this really weird feeling going on inside me.
It's complicated.
Wondering what's this message gonna be.
Pressing the button "open"; i read.
It's just the same old thing.

Asking for my forgiveness and hope to be friends.
Other than the word "sorry", there's nothing else you could add on.
My expectation went down.
So does my feelings.
That entire day i'm gloomed.

I don't really wanna be friends.
I'm selfish.
Being unreasonable and tempered.
Yet for no reason, i agreed.

I really detest myself for acting this way.
I hate my behaviour, my thoughts and my cowardness.
I'm acting so unlike me.
Is it the cause of you ?
Beats me.

I hating myself more than before.
Can someone please wake me up.
Wake me up from my disgusting dream.
I dont' wanna dream anymore.

Though it's pain, i still trust love.
Hoping to find another rightful partner.
And this time, i'm gonna be real picky.
Can that be you ? x))

2007-04-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Time fly rreeeaaaaalll~ fast.
It's been a month now since what happened.
Geez, & can you all imagine i'm still clinging hope to it.
I mean for the past one month la ! lols
Now ?! i'm not sure.

Perhaps it's actually a habit for me.
A habit of having him by my side.
A habit of receiving his calls daily.
A habit of depending on him.
But NOW !! This habit has to change !!!
Get rid of this habit man !
I felt really disgusted just by thinking why on earth am i that depressed.
Disgusted on why am i still loving him after what he did.
Ewww !! ok enough !! I'm getting pimples on my arms already.
Or maybe, i'm just angry of myself.
Beats me.

Ok. Enough of the talking.
Coming right up are the pictures for these past few weeks.
Didn't really took much pics la.
Cos' i'm lazy to even take out my camera.
I'm even more lazy to doll myself up when i'm out.
I just merely had a few strokes of mascara & out i go.
Aiya, i'm lazy for everything now la. x))
Oops, did i talked too much again.
Okok i know, i'm long-winded.
Pictures !! (don't be shock if i look awful w/o much makeups.)

she's always the one who cheers me up.
although she always say, "aiya, forget him la !"
but i still feel comforted. loves x))
this is the only pic we took while that day we watched the "Haunted School"
@ 1.40am !!
of cos not ur only la, there's still her boyfriend & his friends.

remember one of the day we had cafe cartel for dinner.
i think is to celebrate an advanced birthday for my didi (above pic).

end of that day.

a self pic to start the day.
went to catch a movie the "Pathfinder".

the 2 idiots; one acting scared, the other acting gay. lols
& end of that day. not much pic taken. haha

er..dunno when take de. x))

These are last two day's pic.
End~!!

2007-03-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

Seems like we're really, really OVER.

;no longer lovers.

;never will be friends.

;you've walk out of my life & make them a history.

;though you've hurt me much, yet time will heal them all.

;never will i be crying over you again.

;i'll stop loving you & learnt to hate.

;that's to keep myself from remembering you.

;thus, i hate myself behaving like a weakling.

;But ...

;i think i'll be fine after a period.

2007-03-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

Many times, in the middle of the night

I thought my ceiling's leaking

Looking myself infront of the mirror

My nose looks red

My eyes looks puffy

I felt horrible.

The trust, the secure, the feeling

I felt it no longer exist

It's all drifting apart

I feel no love.

Always pondering should i make this an end

Wanting to get rid of such agony

At the same time, i'm being irresolute.

You never knew how i feel

Always wanting Me to understand You

Can You ask yourself

What exactly have You done for Me ?

You've changed.

You took Me for granted don't You.

As I felt Neglected.

You no longer care bout my Presence, my Thoughts, my Love.

Well fine .

Let's End .

2007-03-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

Haven't been seeing and posting my blog for bout 10 days.
It seems SO DEAD ~!!
No tags, no posts. -dead (at least tag lah~)
But nevermind, as long as i'm free i'll try to update. x))
Cos' most of the time i'm busily working. *sighs
Though it's just 10 days, many things happened.
No matter in work, luck or love, there's something bad going on.
Don't wish to talk more bout it.
Maybe i should go temple and pray to get rid off those bad lucks.
Ok, pictures for the past few days:

-Before going out:

-Bought a new shades:

I LOVE THIS PIC!

-A pic before work:

is that me ?! cos somehow i find that i look different in here.

Just noticed that all pics i'm wearing the same colour. -black
Cos' my working place is only allowed to wear BLACK.
Not only my top is black, my bottom & shoes are black TOO.
I'm kinda getting sick of this colour. *shrugs

2007-02-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!

Though it's a new year, i find it quite boring.
It's the same old place i'm going every year.
Suddenly, i find my life's colourless; no life you see.
The only meaningful thing is to collect "ang-paos".
Ok, at least not bad for the money. *grins
But still, i've gotta stay blissful & jubilant.
K lah, enough of the ramblings.
Pictures time !!

Yesterday:

before going out.

that's my sister..x))

my "gugu" & my pretty cousin.

me & cousin. (my face sucks i noe.)

that's her bf.

saw that tall guy there ?! that's my "handsome-biaoge" lah !! xD

couldn't take all the pic of my cousins,cos too many ; shortcut here. while they r gambling.

my CUTE little niece. she's sooo uberly cute.jus then i realise i forgot to shoot their parents pic. x((

Today :

Was totally bored at home.
So we decided to go catch a movie.
The GHOST RIDER.
It's real NICE can !
But before that, we went to the "chun dao he pan".

during the car-journey.

reached. & there ! the always so famous "cai-shen". lols

the 2 noble person who created me !

I love her !

something found. the always so typical-singaporeans.queueing up for their bets.
*tsk-tsk

i love her too !

we're looking at...?!

on my way along, i saw this heel ! & i simply jus love it ! i'm gonna get it. x))

while waiting for the show to start.

that's the popcorn lah.but wat i wanna show is that's the next movie i wanna watch.

END~

2007-02-14T23:48:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL !!

Purposely had off today so to celebrate with Honey~.
Though never plan anything or had any special event, but i still feel happy.
Because i'm with my Honey !
It's been like a month since our last outing.(misses him!) x))
Though no pretty ROSES, no tasty CHOCOLATES, no secret PRESENTS,(although i hope for either x((.) i'm still glad you're with me. *loves.
Nothing gets any better when he's with me ! *teeheehee.
& & oh, i had my fringe cut-ted, cos' it's too long and untidy.
Ok, time for the important part.
Pictures of day !!

before.

after. looks neater ?!

at least Honey bought perfume for me !

went for manicure today & made him waited for me bout an hour.sorry~!
& i dun kinda like the outcome. x((

i only find him nice in this^ pic. hahas.

i tot the background look nice, but....~

candid shot.

Honey kept complaining he's hungry.went Swensen's for our lunch then.^that's his.

notices i've actually stirred it.hehes.

he looks good !

while i look...ewww ! lols.

^last pic of our day together.love u.

NOW. My narcism begins.

End~.

(Happy Valentine my Dear.
Nothing can be done without you around.
My body, heart & soul's are yours.
Take me with you & never leave me.
Loves.)

Nights everyone.
My bed's waiting for my warmth.
Adios~!

2007-02-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

o6o2o7.

I'm actually beat now, so have to cut short my post.
& it's been quite a time since my last post.
Ok, today's my off day and i had my pay !!
Went shopping with my mum, i bought her a new bag.
Hope she likes it. *grins.

Bought loads of stuffs; a new year with new things.
We spent like 400++ in one day ! *sheesh~
I'm gonna start being thrifty from now. x((
& & my camera's fine now ! So pictures time !

^bought this 2 GUESS bag. i actually wanted the black one, but mum said it makes me look old. x((
so eventually, she chose this color for me. but HELLO, i'm the one that's paying it ! anyway, ok la after long looking. *hehes

^i like the inside color !

^this two shoes took me a time to decide which to buy.
so in the end, i decide to buy both ! *teeheehee

^see what i mean ?!

^i miss my camera !! & testing out a few snaps.

Off to my bed now.
Nights everyone.
Love. x))

2007-01-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

Not gonna speak; i'm bushed.
Just gonna flood the whole post with my face !

;; after a looonng working time, finally got a day off. x))

2007-01-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

Sheesh~!! it's been like ages since my last post till now. hahas
Can't blame, cos' i'm always either too tired or too lazy to update after my work.
Many things happened lah.
But it's all good happenings lah.
Only ONCE; bad thing strikes. x((
It's when the day of the countdown to a new year.
It's FUCKING squeezy down at my work place there; city hall.
My friends and I were squeezing out the crowd when there's suddenly an anonymous hand came holding on to my BUTT !! *sigh; fuck
But what to do. x((
Ok, that's the only bad thing happened to me.

Alright, i'll try to update more next time with pics.
Cos' pictures speak a thousand words. x))

2006-12-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

Went PS to catch a movie today; The night at the museum.
It's FREAKING funny lah !
Especially the "T-rex" and those tiny people.
& & the stone statue that's on the wall; "you dumb-dumb, i want some gum-gum", his all-time phrase. lols

In the same time, i found myself being narcissist today. haas.
But i guess all girl's are the same la uh .

^see wat i mean. teeheehee~
Ok,that's all for today ! x))

2006-12-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO~ !!

MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE !!

ENJOY WITH ALL YOUR HEARTS !!

& & MAY GOD BLESS~

Loves. x))

2006-12-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

I've been kept at home this whole day, and i believe it'll carry on for the following days.
While others might be preparing or planning for their Christmas, i'll probably be staying at home and stick to my TV.

Hope that day would just rain and everyone else who had their x'mas plan's would turn out not going smoothly.
Or would just stay at home like ME !! *teeheehee~
Gosh. I think i'm being bad and selfish. x((

How i wish to have plan an outing for celebration too actually.
However, due to my finance.. *sighs
Could do nothing without money; not to say my stomach (meals).
Don't even know when i'm getting my damn pay.
Geez. I'm going crazy being penniless !!

My hands, my heart, my legs, they itch.
My hands & heart they wanna buy the things i longing for.
My legs, they wanna walk, they wanna shop.
Arrgh~! I truly can't take it anymore.

I WANT MY PAY, MY MONEY, MY ITCHY-DESIRES.. NOW!!
*screams~

By the way, my Dad just brought curry puff for me.
I know it's nothing, but what i wanna share is the size of it.
There :

I don't know if you guys think it's big.
But for me, it is ok.
It's not only big in size, but fat too.
Maybe it's hard to be seen in the pics.
I ate only one, and i'm already full.
Probably because i've eaten other things earlier, but that was like hours ago.
Well, anyway, it's nice lah.

Oh, another thing to share.
Think it was like few days ago, while i'm out and in the bus i saw this guy with a unique hairstyle.
Which i find it quite cool & interesting, so just simply shot it.

Cool huh ?! A spider-web & a melody note. (for some who don't catch what's it showing.)
At that moment, i've got this urge on having my hair shaved like this too.
hahas. Well then, guess it's just a moment of folly i think. lols.

Today's entry's quite long uh ?!
Oh my ! I'm getting so looong-winded.
Ok, i'll better end here now, or else it'll never be an ending. hahas

2006-12-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

*Now's the time that i've just reached home not long ago.

Today, 21 dec, we organised a small bbq pit for friends gathering.
Haven't seen them for quite a some time you know.
We were fortunate that it didn't rain heavily like the past few days.
In fact, just a drizzle.
Heaven must be treating us well today.
Took tons of pics, but will load'em up once i got all the pics.
Ok, i'm BEAT !!
Off to bed now. *yawns~

^ these are only pics when i'm home. heh hehs.

2006-12-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

Went out with my fishie(Leyi) today.
To Raffles City for our work briefing.
Cos' after the mega sale, back to the stable location.
New environment, new stuffs & staffs.
Might not be working in the same outlet with Leyi. x((
Sad lah !! But for the sake of money, anything lor. lols
Ok, pictures for now, & & pics for the previous post..!!

before the briefing, had our lunch at Carl's Jr.
Leyi say the burger there very big. but..(above pic) looks fine to me leh !
Big meh ?! *shrugs

out-of-boredom; the machine for the freeflow drink. teeheehee~

jus plain insanity..it's ugly i know, however, i dun mind sharing this ugly pic..in fact, i like it !! hahas

tot the seat itself look nice, so went to try and sit on it and have a pic.
but..well..it doesn't look nice with me on it lah !!

caught in action..heh heh x))

she very slow lah in toilet, took her phone and shot these. heh heh

come come Fishie, take pic with me lah..

reached home; start being zi lian.can't blame, girl's like that. x))

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remembered there's one day Honey come fetch me to work.

andy & eugene.

the ever so funny eugene.

caught Leyi skiving. cos she wasn't supposed to be at this side.
*there's still others, but too busy that i've forgotten.
next time bah, if got the chance. x))

2006-12-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

I've been like slogging for these past few days.
Don't know what i'm slogging for.
Probably money, that's what i'm in need for.
It's really damn tiring to stand for 12 sickening hours.
Worse still if there's no customers; bored to death.
Whenever i reached home, my ankle bloodily pains like hell !
It's so intolerable, for me lah.
Every morning gotta wake up early; slept late at night.
I haven't even had enough sleep; not reaching 8 hours.
I'm FATIGUE !! I'm WORN OUT !!
But how ??!
Gotta carry on till the mega sale's over.
Then, think i'm gonna change job. -[still in consideration]
Cos' my leg couldn't bear the standing.
However.. i made many new friends !!
Will post pictures soon of my new friends.
They are really hilarious lah, but irritating too. lols.
That's all for today, gotta catch some sleep.
As now sleeping is so ooo PRECIOUS to me !! lols.

Bon soir ..

2006-11-29T03:06:00.000+08:00

Wow! It's been quite a days since i blog.
No choice, finding work.
And and, yeah, finally had a job.
Doing back my old line AGAIN. *roll eyes
But this time, different company, working time different too.
I've got to work 12 hours a day, morning 10 to night 10 !! *faints
Though that, it's worth it.
Because for the sake of something called MONEY!!
Like i said, it's the root of trouble for all people.
Yet, everyone LOVES it; me too!!
Oh ya, i'm working at the Expo Hall 6.
Come down to have a look if you wanna buy those bedlinen stuffs. x))
I'm so thankful i finally found a job.
Or else, my mum's gonna NAG at my ears.
Bloody irritating and sickening to hear her voice and sentences repeating the same old one.
Her words will keep running through my mind; [girl, can you please find yourself a job. I don't want to see you at home having your "herbination". You're growing fatter & fatter.Please lah, go find a job and get yourself some money!] -_-'''..
Geez, does anyone of your mum keep nagging you to have a job?!
Well, guess only my mum does that.
Ok, WHATEVER~!!
Mum, i've got a job can !!
I"m HAPPY !! *woots

see, i'm soooo HAPPY i didn't know what face i'm having.
teehee~ x))

That's all, gonna be busy from now; working.
But will try to update and keep my blog alive.
Adios.

2006-11-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

Honey and I went to catch a movie today.
We intented to watch "Step Up" but we was told FULL. *roll-eyes
So change another movie instead, the "Casino Royale".
Luckily it wasn't too bad, quite nice lah. x))
Ok, pictures now !!

inside the theatre before the movie start. AH~! i have red eyes !!

my face look fat in here^.

i simply LOVE~ this pic; his posing.

where are you looking Hon, i'm infront of you !

the "fries-couple"?! but i nicer. hehs =))

do i look kinda beng forced to smile ?!

before going out .

2006-11-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's my last paper for 'O's.
It's my science paper one, going school for just one sickening hour.
Till then, i'm FREE~!!
No stress, no mugging, no studying, but working. -For the sake of money. *sighs
But life's like this, you gotta work through your life.
No matter is studying, working or playing, we strive hard to acheive what we wants.
So .. NO complaints ! [reminding myself]

Oh ya, and today's our 18th month anniversary !!
Love you HONEY~
mwahs. x))

2006-11-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

Went Vivo, AGAIN.
But this time besides me and Leyi, there's Shi yang, Klvin, Gabriel, Sim Siong, Punggol and two of their friends. -don't know what name.
This is the 2nd time i'm going there and it's twice a week.
Reason was they want to "explore", me & Leyi -job.
Nothing much happen la, just walk-walk, see-see, talk-talk.

behind punggol & shi yang are their friend.

simply took this incidently, but it came out to see that they are doing the same action. hahas

he's just acting SISSY. that's Leyi's ear-ring.

Klvin & Sim Siong.

ok, that's Punggol. let y'all guess what he's doing . x))

this pic is advertising people PLEASE, sit and dress properly !!
he went Vivo with this dressing. tsk-tsk. x))

2006-11-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today and yesterday, went around seeking for jobs.
It was damn tiring.
Leyi and i had worn out.

Yesterday: went from places to places, went up and down, till our legs couldn't stand it anymore.
Many things happened too.

Like the office, we went to the International plaza for the job.
Guess what, there's bout 50 storeys high for that building !
Different lifts for different floors ! Geez.
Took the lift to storey 20, asked and told us to write a resume i think.
But know what, had to go storey 35 to fill-in !
Like i said different lifts for different floors, we went back to 1st storey to change lift to storey 35.
What happen then i'm tired to say la !

Today: Morning, accompany honey go cut his hair then settle our lunch at mac.
Went to meet Leyi afterwards.
Reached vivo and saw Topshop hiring people.
But there are mostly MALAY's working there.
So kinda weird you know but not racist la !

Another choice, k-box lor.
Leyi's previous job.
Arrgh~!! we don't know what to work now !
Want this or that ?!
Whatever la, some pics to share then..

outside vivo ..

Hey ! i saw a erm..ancient-chinese-looking ship ?!

a closer view.

Leyi & me.

we saw a celeb, or maybe not counted as la, but i'm sure some of u guys might seen her on tv before. a snap shot by me ! hope won't kena sue uh. lols

Oh ya, know what, at the open space outside vivo, if you've got nth to do, these are a few things you could do. No offense la ! just for reference. x))

couples could..^

if boring, play UNO..^

or..Hey, this backview looks familier !

Ah ! it's Lek han ! hehe.. but he's with..??

his niece la ! he ar, take pic always cannot or should say could hardly see his eyes one lei. open ur eyes la.

there, forced to open hs eyes. but still the same la ! *roll eyes.

he and his erm..horse tail ?! muahahahas..

Lek han & Leyi.

his face like so big uh ?! lmao.

lek han ar lek han, you know how to snap pictures not ar ?!

you see, don't know what you taking also !! -worse

take self pic want to prove yourself wrong is it. There ^, seen your skill ?!
but i must say one thing you're good at. want to know...

...acting cute ! lols.

see what i mean and i've totally no idea where he got that ..??[on his hand] from. And i know it's not clear, cos hp quality. Blame it on my camera which is not working !! I WANT A NEW ONE LA !!

that's our dinner x((. Leyi find the Mee-pok too little. lols.

These were taken ytd. before going out i think.

2006-11-14T00:41:00.001+08:00

"You claimed you didn't want to tell me she's around because you scared i'll think negative !"
"You claimed you, your friends and her were just strictly studying before !"
"You said you had nothing between her !"
"You said you loved me !"

I'm vexed; can i trust you again ?
I claimed i'm just a little pissed but had cooled down.
I'm angry when she's around but i'm more pissed when you didn't tell me she's there !
I admit it's just plain & silly jealousy or being sensitive.
And i admit i DISLIKE her.
But what made me feel that way ?
Her; you liked her before don't you; you had rumours with her don't you ?!
THESE made me feel uneasy.
Why ?! because i love you not because i don't trust you.

I really hate it when you hide.
Hate you for saying you loved me when i'm angry.
Cooled down, as i think i'm at blamed too for not asking who you're with.
That's because i trusted you.
However, you should have say it to ease my mind.
Now that i've found out, i'm despondent.
How i knew ?!
Thanks to the person who wrote that day on their blog with YOUR name on.
Though glad that i found out, yet regret for knowing.
Noticed that i've been calm and lenient enough.
If anymore of such happenings, i assure you i'll turn nasty !-you know me.
Even i know you won't be seeing, but i still hope you'll see this.

2006-11-13T19:53:00.000+08:00

I WANT MONEY !!

I CRAVES FOR THEM !!
I'll go sick staying at home this few months.

People like us are practically materialistic.
We can't do anything without money.
We need them for survival.
Everything in this world counts.
Especially for us women, i admit and we all must admit we're greedy.
We used money to realise our desires.

Imagine this world without money, what will it be like ?
-Like the olden days, exchanging of goods & stuffs ?!
Seriously, money's the root of trouble brought to the society.
Food, clothing, living, transport, taxes, etc; involves money.
Who exactly invented the object of money ?!
The ancient China ? European ? Americans ? Beats me & who cares !

NOW !
I want a job asap; good pay rolls.
Job helps me kill me time off.
Nevermind bout the time.
Anyone ?!

rebonding ..

2006-11-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

Went for rebonding at Malaysia today; my sister too.
I'm soooo~ happy !
But my bum's burning, we've been sitting there for bout 3 hours ! *faints
My butt's numb.
I was happy with the result, HOWEVER ..!!
I was very angry with my FRINGE, it sucks !
I told the hairdresser that i want it SLANTED not STRAIGHT.
He cut it somehow like those japanese-kind or doll-like kind of fringe for me.
I totally regret cutting my fringe.
I wanna cry la.
I miss those fringes i had before.
And these are the results of my fringes & rebonding, don't bother bout my face, i know it sucks.

-Before

-After

See the differences ?!
Tell me which one better.
I personally prefers the one before !
Arrgh~!

my sis & me after rebonding. my face with that fringe somehow look freaking weird !
i don't know why la.

hp quality sucks !

edited obviously.

That's all.
Thanks to my fringes i don't feel like taking more pics.
So that's it for today.
Bon soir!

2006-11-08T02:20:00.000+08:00

Hi my blog !
Geez ! It's been SOOOO~ long since my last post.
Had anyone missed me ?! Guess no la uh. *sighs
Whatever ~ hahs
Anyway, since i couldn't sleep so blog la.
For the past few weeks i'm preparing and having my 'O's !
Didn't have time to blog, not even to post photos.
I'm being lazy actually. x))
And know what, i have this urge on not studying and fail.
Then take private.

Few things to describe myself:
I'm lazy;
do not feel like studying;
no motivation;
thinks bout holidays ;
dying my hair;
craves for money;
wants to work;
fulfilled my wishlist
& even thought of stopping school !

Guess i've given up on myself.
Even i gotta fail my 'O's, i think i don't feel despondent either.
Really doesn't know what's wrong with me.
And i know i couldn't go on like this, but how ?!
I'm gonna FORCE & DRAG myself to mug hard !
No matter what outcome will it be, i'll just resign to fate then.
Lastly: will stop blogging till my exams are over. good luck to me.

stay alive - the movie

2006-10-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

Just watched a movie a minute ago.
The show title's "Stay Alive".
It's nice ! *thumbs up
It's about a game where you play and die in real life; if you're dead in the game.
You'll die exactly the way you dead in the game.
Too, there's story behind this game of course; a countess/witch.-Elizabeth Bathory [sorry if spelled wrongly] x))
About her real life experiences.
She hate looking at the mirror as it reflects her looks. -Old
She always seeks her preys at night and suck woman blood in order to keep herself young. *eewww~
There's this poetry or should say the prayings, left its words in my head.

"Come to me, clouds

May you rise as an evil storm born to rip them open

Let the cover of night bear witness and destroy those who resists

So they shall harm me not

Let the blood of many cleanse me

Preserving beauty eternal

I pray you."

Sounds creepy uh.
And i seems to memorize it, for no reason.
Funny uh ?! *shrugs

I like watching macabre movies i don't know why, but not all of course.
I'm picky on that. hahas
Should watch it too guys !
Oh, another recommendation, "FearDotCom". *2 thumbs up
But abit disgusting lah, for me. =))

*notice i didn't post the poster of "FearDotcom" because, it looks scary!
hahas. x))

2006-10-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17th MONTH
ANNIVERSARY !!

<3..>
mwahs~ ! =))

2006-10-18T17:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, surprised Leyi at her house, as~ it's her BIRTHDAY !
Happy 18th Birthday~~ !!
She cried!
"Leyi, you zhang da le yi sui, ye lao le yi sui, bu yao zai ben ben de le. bian cong ming dian oh.-sui ran zhi dao shi hen nan de shi, hahas.
SHEN RI KUAI LE !!"

We had cakes and KFC feast for dinner.
The feast had a total of 30 over pieces of chicken! *bloated
Geez ! Cos took some for free~ hahas
And guess how much does it cost.
It's onli 20+ ! Cheap uh?!
Got special privelege of course. Thanks to Simsiong, kelvin & yong xiang.
Had fun obviously but lazy to write.
Let pictures do the saying~but will upload later. x))

2006-10-13T16:40:00.000+08:00

Went school today to hand in my Art coursework.
FINALLY..!! I'm done with it.
Not very satisfied with it actually.
As it didn't turn out the i wanted it to be.
So, it sucks.

Aiming for an A2 but guess gonna drop to a 3. *sighs
Or maybe, if i do my paper 2 good enough i might have a turn back?!
Hahas. Thinks i'm joking?!
Hell-no! I'm really serious in my Art alright.
Next step.. start work with my paper 2 NOW!!
Adios~
Some photos to show-off, my art piece !!

^ my 1st hand-observations + developments

^colour scheme

^my final touch-up

^my final piece ! don't see it this small, it's 125 by 100 ok !! it's BIG.

^love this piece of Leyi's. -anime

^her art piece.

Graduation day

2006-10-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

Today's our graduation day !!
Finally, i'm gonna be outta this hell-sickening school.
But only after my 'O's over then i'm totally free from there.
There's speeches from principal, previous principal and students.
Blah-blah~ damn boring hearing those talks.
So sat there there like an idiot where it's so stuffing at my seat.
Okae, had crap-talks though.
Still BORING..!!
Finally over, had buffet.
But didn't get to eat much, as were busying taking photos.
Photos will upload soon when i got'em.
So long then ...

look at Adeline's face..-funny..lols

navin, fadzil & punitha ..

<3 honey~

Ms soh~; form teacher..

crazy~!!

depression time..

student & teacher fighting ..?!

leyi, alethea, punitha & wan nee ..

extreme right, my art teacher, ms loo.. notice i'm eating my curry puff and not yet finish biting she took this pic..

mdm teng; eng teacher.. notice my hand, i'm not done with my curry puff yet.. hahas

that's kelvin, acting depress huh?!

my two besties.. <3

2006-10-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

Went to school in the morning as usual.
Had intensive and so-on..blah-blah~
Nothing much to say about.

But after school..?!
We had fun at Seng kang park- or future park!
Couldn't describe how fun we had. *woots!
We play around with candles & fire.

Made experiments and much much more!!
Gabriel's experiment was a wonderful success.
He managed to create a chemical effect on fire.
It rose up at the height higher than gabriel.
That's amazing i must say.
People around us watched too.
But didn't had a chance to snap it; too bad.
As my cam's battery flat, thus photos are taken using handphones.

Later on, a new MP came around giving mooncakes, Super-ring & luminious light sticks. [ seems like wanna psycho us uh?!] Lols.
We shook hands too!!
Ok, time for some photos now... ...

Kelvin's new-invented lantern, from KFC's cup.

That's yong xiang climbing up the whale's tail just to place a candle. Lmao. it's blur i know cos it's HP quality.*sucks

Our slogan; family name.[ah hai] *yawns..lols

The sparkles..

The 3 lanterns..by kelvin

Our piece..

another piece by us.-the railings

ME..huh?! too far?

here's a nearer one..hehes..

^wan nee..

^leyi.. [anyone realised our posing are the same?! did it on purpose.hahas]

...?!

we're insane..muahahahas!!

note: their ears; light sticks..so sissy but CUTE..lols..

sudden shot from fishie..

simply just find it nice..x))

Lastly, on our way home..!! eww! my face look so pale w/o make-up.. but nvm x))

Really hate handphones picture-taking's quality.
It sucks big-time, as it can never be any clearer then digi-cam.
Arrgh!!~ regret not for charging it at first.
After all the fun, realised that haze got thicker; due to the candles burnt.
And bet sweepers tomorrow's gonna be busy~. *grins
So anyway, i'm BEAT now, gotta sleep.

Bon soir everyone; my loves. *winks

2006-10-01T11:41:00.000+08:00

I HATE MENSE..!!

Sometimes, i really hate being a girl.
And ponders why does girls have menses ?!
Just because for conceiving. WTH ?!

Jeez. I got really annoyed when period comes.
My stomach will got to suffer!
Those cramps are KILLING me !
I couldn't even straighten my back just by standing.
I spent my day aching and groaning.
Even my mum can't stands me.

Every month, one day, i'll easily get irritated, naggy, speaking loudly and got pissed over small matters.
I'm behaving like a shrew; departing from my normal behavior.
People around me, if you ever got annoyed by me, my apologies.
Can't help ya'know.((x
Thanks for the understanding.
Especially you dear, love you! hahas

2006-09-29T18:53:00.000+08:00

As usual, went to school.
During english lesson, we were going through compre-passage.
The passage bout people in the olden days uses cattles, cows or oxen in exchange on something.
Which is a very early form of buying & selling; 'bartering',
before money as we know it appeared.
While talking about even human beings could be sell too, mdm teng told a story which somehow related to the topic but storyline's a different thing.

Story goes:
" In a village, there's this fat and ugliest girl in the whole village.
Where nobody wants, worth no cows/cattles.
One day, the village's most suave and wealthy man wants her.
He came to her father and asked for a hand in marriage of her daughter.
Father was shocked and surprised, even let her daughter off for free.
Man say no, in addition he offered 20 cows for her.
Later then, she became the village's most beautiful woman."

The moral of the story is:
Love makes a woman beautiful.

As in:
-if you treat a woman like diamonds, they'll shine for you.
-but if you treat them like dirt, they'll behave like one.

I prettily agree~
What a lesson.
So guys out there, never treat a girl like dirt or mud.
And MOST importantly, DON'T judge people solely by their appearance.
Cos' that SUCKS!! *wink.

2006-09-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

I don't know when it all started
When my head became dizzy with thoughts of you

These thoughts would often pop up in my mind
I feel anxious as my heart expands towards you

It's nothing.. it's just a little thing
Your words are awkward to me

Is it love? If you feel the same way, is it a beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you
It screams out for the whole world to hear
Why has it taken so long for me to hear it~?
We've finally met.. finally found love

If I wanted to show you how I feel
The only way would be for you to become me

I'm already inside of you
Just like you're inside of me

To each other
We may already be too accustomed

Is it love? If you feel the same way, is it a beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you
It screams out for the whole world to hear
Why has it taken so long for me to hear it~?
We've finally met.. finally found love

When I think about it
I realize how many moments there were when my heart trembled
I'll try as harder as I was late in realizing my feelings
I'll be with you, I'll only give you fond memories
Please don't ever leave me again
Even the shortest moments without you make me uneasy
Please stay by me~

I already love you so much (you're the only one)

2006-09-26T16:03:00.000+08:00

J & HowL ~ Perhaps Love (Sarang Een Gah Yo)

uhn jeh yuht duhn guhn jee gee uhk nah jeen ah nah
jah kkoon nae muh ree gah nuh roh uh jee ruhp duhn shee jahk
hahn doo buhn ssheek dduh oh reu duhn saeng gahk
jah kkoo neul uh gah suh joh geum dang hwang seu ruh oon ee mah eum

byuhl eel ee ah neel soo eet dah goh
sah soh hahn mah eum ee rah goh
nae gah neh geh jah koo (neh geh jah koo)
mahl eul hah neun geh uh saek hahn guhl

sarang een gah yo geu dae nah wah gaht dah myuhn shee jahk een gah yo
mahm ee jah koo geu dael sarang hahn dae yo
ohn seh sang ee deud doh rohk soh ree chee neh yo
wae ee jeh yah deul lee jyoh~ OOH~
suh rohl mahn nah gee wee hae ee jeh yah sarang chah jaht dah goh

jee geum nae mah eum eul suhl myung hah ryuh hae doh
nee gah nae gah dweh uh mahm eul neu kkee neun bang buhp ppoong een deh

ee mee nahn nee ahn eh eet neun guhl
nae ahn eh nee gah eet deu shee
oo reen suh roh eh geh (suh roh eh geh)
ee mee geel deul yuh jeen jee mohl lah

sarang een gah yo geu dae nah wah gaht dah myuhn shee jahk een gah yo
mahm ee jah koo geu dael sarang hahn dae yo
ohn seh sang ee deud doh rohk soh ree chee neh yo
wae ee jeh yah deul lee jyoh~ OOH~
suh rohl mahn nah gee wee hae ee jeh yah sarang chah jaht dah goh

saeng gahk hae boh myuhn (saeng gahk hae boh myuhn) mah neun soon gahn sohk eh (sohk eh)
uhl mah nah mah neun (YEAH~) suhl leh eem ee ssuht neun jee
joh geum neu jeun geu mahn keum nahn duh jahl hae jool kkeh yo..

hahm kkeh hahl kkeh yo choo uhk ee dwehl gee uhk mahn suhl mool hahl kkeh yo
dah sheen nae gyuh teh suh dduh nah jee mah yo
jjahl beun soon gahn joh chah doh bool ahn hahn guhl yo
nae geh muh mool luh jwuh yo~ OOH~
geu dael ee ruh geh mah nee (geu toh rohk mah nee)
sarang hah goh ee ssuh yo (geu dae yuh yah mahn) ee mee~

2006-09-25T17:05:00.001+08:00

Recently, i've been busying doing my coursework and watching dramas.lols.
And YES, i spent most of the time catching up the episodes. hahas

It's Goong-[Princess hours] !!-korean drama
cast by Joo jihoon, Yoon Eun Hye & Kim Jung hoon.

I got totally so hooked to this series.
It's one of my favourites.
And FINALLY, i've finished watching it!! *woots
It's like a show of a modern-cinderella.
Though it'll be telecast on channel u but i just simply can't wait.
And TV's always tend to cut scenes.
Which i don't like.

Asking if it's nice; i'll definitely answer that it's worth watching
and i strongly recommend everyone to WATCH it.
But if you don't like it, then just shut the hell-up!! ((x
Cos i HATE it when people say negative remarks to things that i LIKE.

I always love korean & taiwan romance dramas.
e.g. -Devil beside me by Mike He & Rainie yang. [taiwan]
e.g. -My Lovely Samsoon by [forgot the names] ((x [korean]
There's still lots of nice dramas but gotta see one's liking.
That's all.
Gotta start my COURSEWORK now..!!

Adios~

2006-09-24T15:33:00.000+08:00

Hi ..
It's been a week plus since my last post.
Been busy with my prelims and yeah didn't well TOO.
I'm gonna really brush up all my subjects.
Or else, my 'O' cert's gonna get real "nice" grades.

On friday, i went home looking so miserable.
I had a hand with 6 mounting boards & the other a big wooden board home.
The big board was length 100 by 125.
It's bout 3/4 of my size and i've gotta carry that home!* faints
Those are my art coursework.
Being allowed to bring home to finish.
And so, will be slogging at home till i drop.

And lately, been pondering over some matter.
have anyone experience :
-betrayal?
-humiliation?
-criticism?
-being despised?
-or ever felt despondence?
I bet everyone had experienced either one.

have anyone thought of :
-why we had to go through these?
-and why people would do such thing?

Doing matters that humiliate,criticise & betray oneself.
Do they feel a sense of contentment with it?
And do they have a sense of compunction?
What's their purpose on doing that?
-provoke a dispute; stir up trouble?!
Really impalpable.

Humanity possesses all sorts of characteristics & life experiences.
e.g. either you're the one bullying another or you're the one being bullied.
These, is life;where things do not always turn out they way one wishes.
People who likes criticising or bad-mouthing others are just a way of being jealous bout one's thing.
it's just a way that they say it in an abominable way.
Too, i bet everyone had bad-mouth others before.
but can we leave some accumulate virtue before going too-too.
As it really will hurt one's feeling or might draw forth one's ANGER (if that's what you people wants).

To the thought of that, some people tend to bad-mouth others but surreptitiously.
It's really loathing!
Or some said so obviously that you asked them, they still have the cheeks to say, "oh,i got say you meh?!" *stares
PLEASE, dare to do anything; be afraid of no difficulties!-[that's my word of wisdom]. HAHAHAHAS!!

So anyway, that's what i think.
Conclusion, stop bad-mouthing. Peace everyone.
but guess, it's a NEVER! hahas *sighs.

chiong art

2006-09-13T13:16:00.000+08:00

Had chinese prelim paper just now.
It's all screwed up ! [once again]
My paper 1-compo, i left fill-in-the-blanks for teacher to mark.
Fill-in-the-blanks uh;wonder ?

Well, there's words i didn't remember how to write and actually intend to fil it up later on.
But, you see, there's limited of time. Darn !
So, screwed.
Forget it, but i have to make sure not to do the same mistake again at my O's.

And NOW, it's for ART TIME !
Geez, gonna burn the midnight oil and forget bout revising my maths for tomorrow.
Untill then, i'm off to "work"...
Wish me luck man. ))x

Poetry- the mask we all wears

2006-09-10T19:42:00.000+08:00

Let's start with something new today.
Do poetry ?!
Not a bad idea.
Everyone should try, as it really tells it all.
So let's try things that happen in life.

"Life ..
Life is like a masquerade
a true but depressing charade
We all wear masks of black and white
a mask to disguise all truths and lies
Too often we are blinded by excuses that roll off our tongue

As if we truly meant them
yet we all long to be set free
where our true identity, all can see
But still, we hide and play our parts
they are nothing but a mask

Under this mask, small and afraid
never in the sun one's bask
always forced to be someone else
These falsities we shall erase

So stare at my flaws, take a gander at me
Take a look at what we all could be
Take a look at the truth, now i must say
Who of you will join and remove this mask?"

;anyone agrees with me ?!
;saw this somewhere. ((x

BIRTHDAY!

2006-09-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

Today's my "Birthday" !
Well, went a trip to Malaysia.
Take it as a birthday-trip lah !
Cos', anyway it's just a birthday to me.
So nevermind bout where or who to celebrate it.
BUT.. must have at least people know it's my birthday and wish me lah.

Speaking bout my trip to malaysia; i've return with a rewarding journey.
Bought loads of stuff ! *claps
We shop & eat, eat & shop.
Gosh ! It's so fattening.
As we ate fried stuffs, creamy cakes & all sorts of snacks ! Arr..
However, it's worthwhile.
Fat ?! Diet tomorrow lah. lols.
But when does that "tomorrow" be coming ? *ponders
Ok, cut the crap. =x
And here's some photos to share ...

Chocolate cake ->my sis's

Cheese cake -> Mine !

Chilli & tomato tuna spagg.

smiles. ((x

sis & me. [real sis]

*poutting ?! lols.

us again..so ?!

what u looking at uh ?! lols.

let's tuck in !

what, don't give u eat act pathetic ar?!

na la,na la, give u eat lor.

see, prove hor, don't go around saying i ill-treated u.lols

my mum; camera-shy

guess where am i? ((x

nasi briyani ayam; of cos after a long walk we had this & it looks palatable! YUM!!

see what i mean.it's yummy till i didn't even realised someone took a pic of me & it's ugly! but nvm.=)

That's all for today !
Adios~

wearisome

2006-09-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

Been busy for the past few days.
So no time blogging.

Yesterday, went to do "coolie"; helped my uncle stack up his bloody stocks.
At his "big & spacious" store.
Darl came along to help out, but, went off the earliest too. ))=
Cos' gotta rushed home.

There were almost 70 cartons of shoes!
Jesus! How the hell am i gonna stack those up in that "spacious" store of his.
It's a mission-impossible to me.
He, himself was vexed; we too.
It totally influenced my mood.
I was like, "Are you kidding?!"

Still, i did the job; opening the cartons, carry the stuffs, arranging in orders and do the tying.
It's so wearisome.

These alone was pissing enough.
Yet, my uncle was being such a nitpick. Damn!
He's really pissing me off. -*hell sickening.
Besides, honestly, i totally loathed him ever since he lived with us.
He's seriously a detestable & irksome fellow!
Simply none of my family can stands him.
If it were not for my mother, it's over my dead body to help him out.

Today, was actually asked to help out again!
I simply refused and cooped myself at home.
Same goes to my sister.
I'm sure to be obstinate in it.
And YES, i didn't turn up.
I know i'm being unreasonable but can't help.
Cos' he always deems that he's right.
What! Take us for granted?! Hell no!
I don't care what you say!

[counting down 2 more days]

Being cheated..

2006-09-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

Woke up quite early today, do not know why.
So not used to it.
Probably yesterday night might have slept early. That's why.

Received Leyi's message asked me go her house do art.
Deems that she finally wants to buck up.
But.. *sighs..
I'm actually there as a substitute.
Because got the who lah.
You know what i mean, eh Leyi! *regret.. ))=
LOL.

Still, did a little art; drew a little.
Thou i drew more. hahas.
And one thing that annoys me is her outrageous BROTHER.
He & his mouth; rattling on and on. Grr!!
Bloody sickening uh!
But nevermind, i'm magnificence to forgive.
Eventhough, don't you dare reach out a yard after taking an inch. lols

Went to had our dinner later on.
Feel bloated. *Burp~ =))
Okae, that's all folks.

-counting down 5 more days..!!

2006-09-01T19:36:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY..

*me; slept whole day* x))

-Adios ..

Steamboat..

2006-08-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

Went to Marina south today and had steamboat.
It's actually to celebrate Hong yun's birthday.
However it seems to be like an usual outing; forgetting what's the purpose on coming. lols.
We had cakes, and the cake was like..?! -you'll know later.
Follow by that, we went to play pool.

Everyone's coupled, and i was like..-extra.
Where's my man?! lols.
Wish he was there too, but too bad, because of the food there.
He can't eat. So sad.
I felt so left out. ))=
Boy; i'll make sure you comes along next time. hees.

Ok. Time for some pics now...

look what we've eaten..

evelyn & fion ..

the "Green-couple" ..

wonder why xinyi looks so stunned .. ((x

the "Biggest cake" i've seen ..

& the "Biggest lighter" used to light the candle ..

the Birthday boy; HONG YUN ..

jiaqian took the pic when i'm not ready yet.. look so stupid here ))x

OK watever, nobody's interested in ur ice-cream .. lols

my smile seems so fake ..

dolling up ..?!

ME ..!

me & qian ..

me & evelyn ..

Fion looks so sweet ..!

at marina's pool ..

wonder who took this? cos it's NICE & i LIKE!!

Ok, we had enough..time for home..

just realised i didn't had a shoot of Nelson's face..-the green guy

corliss & me .. [edited effect]

us again ..

me & fion ..

it's nice of her to take pic with an ugly me.. ((x

Lastly my friends, it's been a long time since we met.
I've a great time with y'all.
Hope for more outings next time.
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONG YUN!

Rain.. rain..

2006-08-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

Had English papers today, i totally screwed it up.
As i fell asleep in the middle of the paper.
Resulting my summary wasn't able to finish on time.-wth
Well, ok, no point being miserable now.
It's bygones! lols.

So after the exams, we went for lunch.
Had chicken chop. Gosh! Damn full. lols.
Then, the weather starts to change, and there comes a heavy downpour.
It's COLD..!
So no choice but to take a stroll round the mall.
By chance, i saw loads of tees i like. lols.
But... no $$. ))=

Follow then, we bought two glass bottle of apple & grape juice. -non-alcholic
Went to Leyi's place and drank them all. hahs.
I stayed bout 6+, decided to go home.
However, it started pouring again!! -it's heavy.
So no choice, stayed there till 8 and had my dinner too; maggie.

It's a terrible weather today, but good thing is at least we spent it wisely.
There's actually much thing to say but...
I'm LAZY... ... lols. =D

That's all.

Period ..

2006-08-28T18:20:00.001+08:00

Sickening day.. Had my period; 2nd day.
My stomach cramps like hell. Couldn't concentrate on my maths just now due to the aching.
Leyi gave me pills to eat, but it didn't seems to have any effect. Damn!
So got to walk around and ease my cramps.
Walked to Leyi's seat and guess what, she and shi yang was writing "msn"?!
Imagine how lame and boring they can be. lols.
Thru that i found out thatshi yang's quite straight forward in saying things out.
But the 2 of them is always bickering with each other.
Can't stand them! lols.
And shi yang, i show sympathy to you.
As your hand, already from hougang to harbour front and straight cut to jurong east. lols.

Oh ya, and his english is..?! lols. Know what i mean lah.
shi yang: i've "upgrade" my drink.
"upsize"--> "upgrade"

Then Leyi is..
Leyi:you see this "camel" so cute.
Where it's actually a "giraffe".
She's having a terrible eye-sight problem. hahas.

But anyway, they sure have loads of funny craps going on almost everyday. Including me lah! hahas.

Lastly, to Leyi, don't care bout what the shit they said.
They just like create those absurd canards!
As they simply have nothing better to do.
And i totally have no idea why they love speaking ill bout others. They don't gain anything either!
So don't worry lah.

Ok, i'll stop here then. ((=

Brainfag..

2006-08-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

Waking up at bout 3+ in the afternoon.
Had my breakfast-cum-lunch.-porridge
After eating, i kept myself all day long in my stuffy room.
Started doing my art . I was totally engrossed in it; cracking my brain for ideas; drawing on papers over and over again.
"Deadline's due .. deadline's due.."; it kept running thru my mind.
It really cracks my brain when getting ideas of what to draw.
Finally, i got pissed off with it. ))x
I stopped and here i come complaining to my blog. Geez!!
Even my big board was only half-way done!
Can anyone please give me a slap and wake me up; telling me not to give up!
Cos' i really feel to~

*slap slap slap*
-Don't give up!
-Don't give up!
-Don't give up!
-Don't give up! (-self reprimanding.)

First time ..

2006-08-25T19:06:00.000+08:00

This is my 1st time doing this blogging thingy. And phew ! It took me 3 hrs to complete it. (not completely) Nearly gave up on it. It kept appearing not the way i wanted it to be. Getting so fed-up ! But well, overall's fine . (pondering?)